2004-11-14 - 4:13 p.m.

I was sure that I was going to have a more festive topic to discuss today. After all it is my birthday. However there has been a theme to all of the events of this past week that I want to discuss and put into perspective for my life and since today hasn’t proven to be all that happy of days I wanted to put my creative juices to work.

Let’s start with Break-Up #1

It is not easy to watch someone you are so close to be treated, well for lack of more colorful term, badly. As a very involved third party to this particular relationship I watched as the girl became more and more devoted to an individual guy that talked an amazing talk but could just never produce an equally amazing walk. For the most part I was never impressed with the guy. But who am I to judge? I have been involved with a person who was a complete and total waste of time but never cared to listen to anyone who told me so. No one really likes to be alone all the time, well wait maybe someone out there does but I have yet meet him or her. Anyway because I care for the girl very much I even went so far as to council her. If being with this individual is what made her happy then far be it for me to fight the powers of love. *A key note here would be that love was a one way street in this case.* I helped her establish what the problem with her relationship was (she wasn’t feeling like a top priority), then come up with examples so she could illustrate her problem, and then finally come up with solutions to the problem that would benefit both parties. Alas, “the conversation” took place and took a turn into “How On God’s Green Earth Did We End Up Here?” world. He knew she didn’t feel like a priority, he knew he wasn’t treating her the way she should be treated, he knew he didn’t want to change his behavior at all, he knew he wanted it to end. This of course left me and the girl speechless. Why would someone bother to even be in the relationship if they fought so hard against making it word? Why would someone say they care about another individual but then intentionally participate in behavior that harms them?

Well, this break-up made me realize a few things. 1.) I am lucky to have Jason. For all of the fights and misunderstandings that we have had I do truly realize that he loves me. He wouldn’t put forth the effort that he does in our relationship if he felt other wise. He has always been very honest and upfront. 2.) He moved out to New York which was selfish we all agree on that. But he moved out there to better himself which would in turn benefit us. Jason was never as selfish as the guy mentioned above.

Break-Up #2

Now I must be honest this break up not sent me into a state of shock but also makes NO sense. Ashley and Dave have been together a couple months. He is in the navy, she lives here with me, they have coped with their long distance relationship hurtles. He came into town last weekend and they had a wonderful time together. Last night he called to say, “Saying goodbye to you kills me inside so I would rather have one great big goodbye via a breakup than a thousand little goodbyes.”

Hmmm…..

He says that he doesn’t want to be with anyone else and doesn’t want her to be with anyone else.

Yet again hmmm…..

I don’t really buy that.

This break-up made me realize that all my doubts about Jason wanting me to come out to New York are foolish. I can’t imagine him ever calling me to say I love you too much and hurts too much to say good bye so let’s just end it.

So guess the moral of these stories is that I should be thankful for what I have. What a great time to realize that when Thanksgiving is only two weeks away!

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